Change

It's weird how different things are without anyone knowing it. Its crazy how much is going to change in such a short amount of time. I don't know if I'm ready for so much change quite yet but I really have no choice. I had to get my kidneys checked today and that came back perfectly fine. Thank God. but still, so much is going on right now I'm not sure how to handle it all. There's a reason for everything and although its not clear now, it may be clear later on? All of this stress made me think of a friend from camp who passed away last August. I've mentioned her before I think. Her name was Jill and everyone from camp loved her. She was always happy and positive and loved life so, so much. She had breast cancer and although that's a challenging thing to go through, she never let it get the best of her. She remained positive and happy and perky just like she would have been if she was cancer free. My situation may not be cancer but my grim outlook isn't going to help. I wish I could be like Jill and put forth my best attitude towards life and make the situations handed to me work. I should take her as an example and learn to be happy. I should be happy that I'm healthy and okay and I have my friends and family. Whenever I'm being a Debbie downer I need to think of Jill and how she would have been in this situation. It makes me want to be the best person I can be, because there's no reason not to be. no matter the situation.