alone time

I tried to engage in some retail therapy today. Did it help? Not really. There was just to many darn children everywhere and the drive there was horrendous. I did get some cute stuff though so I'm happy about that. I wish I could have bought the cupcake underwear at victorias secret though.. maybe next time! I don't have cupcake underwear, and I'm pretty sure I need some! I was glad I got some alone time. I wish I could be alone all by myself with no one around but I won't ever be able to. There are just to many people in this world and they will not leave me alone. I wish there was a place where no one went that i could just go to for a few hours and think. Its to cold to find one outside and there just isn't a inside place. I really just need my own place to live. I need a way to get away I guess. Today has been one of a kind. I truely escaped having not one but TWO seizures today. 4 AM woke up at 38 destroyed the kitchen and then in the afternoon I was 41. Wow.