pessimism at its finest.

I'm thinking I need to make changes again..
BIG changes too... Like finding a second job, changing something about my appearance, pick up a new hobby. Well I guess those are small changes but other changes with that. One of my changes is that I'm planning on staying single, I've been looking for a man to date for quite sometime now but I just have the worst luck, and I'm sick of looking! I'm being such a pessimist about it now, but honestly there is NO one that strikes my interest. I don't feel like having my feelings hurt anymore and I just want to hang out and work on myself. Men are not worth the effort to me right now. If I'm not worth it to them, then they certainly are not worth it to me. I'm just sick of the guys I find, they are dirtbags. All of the good ones are taken and I'm not dealing with the leftovers. I would rather starve. Its kind of sad to think I'll be single forever but I'm okay with it kind of. I can do alone. I just need to catch my thoughts and change them so it reflects what I'm trying to do. If the guy I'm looking for comes around, then well, we can work that out. Since I doubt he exists.. It probably doesn't matter. I'm not looking for hook-ups or anything along the lines of that. When I say NO boys, I mean NONE. I don't want a thing to do with them.. well conversation but anything that is considered lovey dovey or sexual is out. and will be for a while. This isn't a big loss for the male community so what the fuck ever, right?
Now lately I've been pressed with the issue of trust. I've come to find that there a lot of sneaky snakes out there willing to pounce on you the second your not looking. I'm not saying I'm done trusting because if I do that, then I'll be to paranoid. No, I'll still give people the benefit of the doubt but it sucks that people can't just be..real. Also, why do I only find people who have a shady way of living? why?! I just want people in my life who are fun and just like to talk and hang out and live life. Not people who all they look for is male/women attention (or sex), people who will use people for whatever they can get (money, rides, sex etc.) too fucking bad this is all anybody is like anymore. uggggh things need to change
-New people need to be found with GOOD qualities
-personal changes need to be made
and I'm sure I'll think of more